Ache

My heart is aching because of all the pain I have caused you
My heart was aching till the day you told me you loved me
My heart will always ache till the day i hold you in my arms
My heart won't ache when i have you with me
I have hurt so much i wished for death
Yet you still tell me you love me
I cried every second you hated me
I cried every moment I know could be my last
I cried every day till today know how i feel is being returned to me
I cried every day wishing for death every day till today
I never thought I would see those words from you but now that I have
Life is worth the pain

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Stay Away
Leave me alone and stay away
I don't need you to say everything will be okay
You don't understand and you never will
You've never felt my fears
And your pain will never over fill
You will never shed as much tears
If you could just open your eyes and see
Things won't ever be the same
I believed You all those times when you said everything will be
ok but see what happened
it will never be ok
So leave me be
So just go the way I'm done with all your games
And forever stay away

Light Of My Eyes
My darling
I'm calling out to you
Reassure me
Comfort me
Don't let my hand let go of yours
Don't go away from me for a second
Hold me and make me forget the world
And promise me that you'll stay with me
Oh light of my eyes
Hold me, feel me
With you i will be able to go on and be complete
And no matter who hurts me I'll bear it
Because of your eyes, my darling
I would rather die than leave you...

Light of My Life..
I walk alone through the darkness
with nothing left for me in life
but I dare not give up my search
for hopes of finding the light in my life
that I yearn so deeply for.

Wanting to just give up many times
but the image of her in my head
keeps me pushing forward
never stopping, never resting
in fear of missing her
and loosing her forever.

No matter what stands in my way
I shall keep pressing on and searching,
for she has my heart and my soul

Shes my reason for breathing...

Sorry
What's the point in saying sorry, when you know what you done was wrong?
What's the point in saying sorry, when you know you'll carry on?
What's the point in saying sorry, when you know that you are not?
It won't be long before you say sorry again.
You can't change, you won't change, because your sorry.

Thunder
Without you I'm nothing.
Not anything at all.
I miss our amazing times,
Like at the movies, and the mall.

I wish I could go back,
to make everything right.
Then maybe you'd still be
in-love with me tonight.

I sit, and I sit..
with nothing to do.
All this time doing nothing,
but waiting on you.

Without my happiness
I'm miserable at best.
It's like someone shot me
infinity times in the chest.

To be in your presence again,
Is what I hope for one day.
I may not believe in Jesus,
but to get to see you, I'll sure as hell pray.

I miss your smile, your smell,
your laugh, and your hair.
To see you again I'd walk through the bowels of hell.

I'll always love you,
with all of my being.
I know that when I go to bed,
you're all I'll dreaming.

I can't fix the past,
But one thing is true.
Nothing will ever matter more,
Than the memories I've made with you.

I'm glad now though,
because I know that you're happy.
As long as you're smiling,
I can't feel too crappy.

You're my soul mate.
or at least that's what I feel.
And I'll always be here for you.
Even if we're light years apart.

You could push me away, day after day
but my heart will always be dedicated to you,
and I hope that through everything,
you'll still love me too.

Two Boxes
I have in my hands two boxes
Which God gave me to hold
He said,"Put all your sorrows in the black,
And all your joys in the gold."
I heeded his words, and in the two boxes
Both my joys and sorrows I store
But though the gold became heavier each day
The black was as light as before
With curiosity, I opened the black
I wanted to find out why
And I saw, in the base of the box, a hole
Which my sorrows had fallen out by
I showed the hole to God, and mused aloud,
"I wonder where my sorrows could be."
He smiled a gentle smile at me.
"My child, they're all here with me."
I asked,"God, why give me the boxes,
"Why the gold, and the black with the hole?"
"My child, the gold is for you to count your blessings,
the black is for you to let go."

Angry with Myself
I am very angry with myself,
because I have only five senses.
A special woman like you
needs more than five senses,
needs special emotions,
and special man.

Special woman like you
needs me only to write about her,
not just messages,
needs me to write books,
stories, novels, poems about her.

I am very angry about my language;
because it has not enough words
to describe you
all the words in my mind,
in any language I know,
can not describe only your eyes
but I will do the impossible
to be a special man
a man that can do anything for you
a man that can love you for ever.

One Wish
If I could have just one wish,
I would wish to wake up everyday with the sound of your breath,
The warmath of your lips on my cheek,
The touch of your fingers on my skin,
and feel of your heart beating with mine....
Knowing that I could never be with anyone other than you!

Seven Days
If I had seven days to live
and you'd ask me what I'd do
I'd spend my first six day's with god
and the final day with you

On the first day I'd ask the lord above
to take care of the one I love
'cause there's no one else I'd rather have
than you my one and only love

I'd pray the second day
to take away your fears
'cause it would only break my heart
to see my love in tears

The third day is for thanksgiving
for the blessings we received
he had blessed me when I met you
the best gift I received

On the fourth day I'd be asking him
to forgive me for all my sins
and if I may I'd beg him please
for another chance to live

A prayer for preparation
would be on the fifth day
that he may take me to heaven
and not the other way

A prayer for mankind
is for the sixth day
that they may soon find peace in their hearts
and would soon reunite

I blessed the seventh day
'cause I passed my time with you
that before I leave this world
you'll know how much I Love You...

Stay Away
Leave me alone and stay away
I don't need you to say everything will be okay
You don't understand and you never will
You've never felt my fears
And your pain will never over fill
You will never shed as much tears
If you could just open your eyes and see
Things won't ever be the same
I believed You all those times when you said everything will be
ok but see what happend
it will never be ok
So leave me be
So just go the way I'm done with all your games
And forever stay away

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